A Day Off

Today we had a snow day... it was kinda nice. I laid around most of the day, which is REALLY unlike me. I was at a meeting last night that ran really late, and I had trouble getting back to sleep after my 4:55 AM phone call, so I needed some rest (or at least that's my excuse). While laying around with Eric, we had a little tiff about our revised baby making schedule. Yeah, I'm not too excited. Apparently, the whole miscarriage really scared him and now he's really unsure of the getting pregnant in the near future! Ugh, I was hoping that being preggo once already would have made it easier. So, eh, I don't know where we stand with that.

After taking multiple naps and only doing laundry, I decided to get back on my training regimen (Broad Street Run in May!) and get my butt to the YMCA. I got to the Y, dutifully did my 2 1/2 miles, lifted some weights and came home. The good thing is I lost 3 lbs. so far since starting my little diet. I'm proud of myself and know I can do a lot better if I try a bit more (I haven't been giving it a TRUE effort!) So, back to the grind tomorrow. Hopefully, I'll be able to pick myself out of the mid-winter blues. I just keep reminding myself that I very lucky to be where I am in life. I should be more grateful.

Pulling It Back Together

So today was the first day I actually felt productive in a LONG while. For the first time in a long time, I actually felt like I was pulling it back together. I was able to go to the Y (my now New Year's Resolution), get some laundry done from our vacation, clean the house and get a massage (thanks for a gift card from a friend who knew how rough life can be). So, I feel a lot more together these days. Thanks goodness, because I was really getting sick of coming home to mess, going to work in a mess, looking like a mess, etc. The trend was just really annoying and not like me.

As much as all of that is helping, I still can't help but wonder, what if? We're planning on going on going to the mall tonight, and I know I'll stare into Baby Gap, maternity stores, etc and think how much I'd like to be shopping for those reasons. I know the only thing that's going to help is time, but I wish I could fast forward at this point. I'm also really scared about if I get pregnant again, how paranoid I will be.

Oh well, I guess there's not much we can do now, except wait (and lose a few pounds!) I know it'll come someday, but I'm about the worst and being patient for things I really want. Because of my go-getter attitude, if I want something, I just make it happen. Unfortunately, many times my sister has reminded me that this is not something you can just "make happen." Anyway, now that's off my chest.... haha, isn't that what blogs are for?

Mexico= Wonderful

Mexico was wonderful! It was such a nice vacation from life. We were able to spend time with my family and relax. And boy, did I need relaxing. Although I'm still wishing I was pregnant, it's nice to get away once in awhile. It also helped that I was able to drink on this vacation! Here are some pictures:

Eric and I getting ready for dinner

The Beach

The hotel

View from my chair..... WONDERFUL!

I'm really tired, and I promised a date at the Y for kickboxing in the morning. It's time to start my resolution a few weeks late! Good night!

Back to Antarctica!

Well, we're back! The trip was awesome. We had such a good time. It wasn't long enough. In 5 days, we managed to go to an underground river, parasail, and rent a jet ski, as well as get a rockin tan! So, things are good.... I can't upload pictures at work, but I will be sure to when I get home! Have a great day!

Back On Track

I'm feeling a little bit better each day. Thank you for all of your well wishes and support. You guys really are great! I've gotten back to exercising (5 days off was making me a little mental!) and the routine of school is a good distraction. Another good distraction is Mexico on Saturday! I'm really looking forward to getting away with Eric. My sister, brother in law and my uncle are all fun, and my parents are crazier than we are. I'm sure it'll be a blast. At this point, I don't really care what I look like in a bathing suit, because I can't starve myself skinny this quick. We will simply just deal with it!

So, looking forward, it seems like we're just going to take the same plan we took before. No "trying" but not really avoiding either. It seemed to work last time, and pretty quick at that, so who knows? Maybe it'll work this time too. Of course, I'll be sure to keep all of your bloggers in the loop!

So, as if these 15* temps aren't making you feel cold enough.... think of me here on Saturday by lunchtime..... yeah, I know you're jealous.... my parents rock.

Last Call

Last call before I go private. If you already left a comment or emailed me, I've got you on the list. If you haven't please let me know before tomorrow night!

Such a Slow Process

Miscarriage is much different and slower than I thought it would be. It feels a lot like getting your period, but there's a lot more pain in your back and stomach. I pretty much just ache. All in all, I'm still pretty unhappy with the Dr's office giving me the run around, and I'm ready for a vacation. Mexico will be a nice break from the frustration of life right now. I'm ready for a break. I wish I had more information for all of you, but the problem is I don't really know anything else. I feel VERY misinformed.